This is Lil' J Coming @ Ya!!!

What's the biggest frustration in your life right now?

My biggest frustration is not being where I wanted to be at this age.  My birthday is next month and I'm scared I won't have a job by then.  What further frustrates me is I've becoming comfortable with the ideal of 

Why is it seen as a form of judgement if you don't want to do something?  Why can't it been seen as just uninterested?

Not sure what I'm going to blog about tonight, but my curosity got the better of me so I thought I'd chot down some words.

::thinking::

Can anybody answer me the age old question of what one can do when it seems to be a no win situation?

Love to hear anyone's thoughts.

Dishes...AHHHH

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I just have to point out that I HATE with a PASSION doing the dishes.  Why???  Because it NEVER seems to END.  There they are, all the time...dirty.  On top of that, it's something that HAS to be done EVERY day.  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  Will the madness every end???

Come one...someone has to share my pain on this...hehe.

Would you rather give away your money or give away your time?
Submitted by Ross

Good question.  For the past year and a half, that's the only thing I've been able to freely give away.  But am I giving it away or just handing over something that no one else can?  Anyone can drop a dollar off and say "here, good luck".  It's a one time donation.  However, for me it's not the money in the bank that's going to help me feel better about myself, but it's the time my friends have freely given to me.

Time is more personal.  It requires you to step out and share, in order for it to mean anything.  Time allows for ranting, crying, smiling, and laughter...so basically it allows for emotions to be expressed and delt with.  To know that I have a friend willing to come and visit me to hear me out on all the stresses that I have, to make me smile and laugh, and to tell me up right that it'll pass but more importantly that they'll help me through, is a far greater gift then money.  This is the same thing that I want to give away.  Give back what has so freely been given to me.

When I die, I won't be thinking about my bank account, but instead of the time that my family, friends, and even strangers have given me to help me along.

1. If I could have been a teenager/twenty-something in another decade, it would be the _____________.
2. If I could pick out a special talent for myself, it would be _____________.
3. If I could change one physical attribute about myself, it would be ______________.
4. If I could be any super hero, I would be __________.
5. If I could skip any holiday during the year, it would be __________.
6. If I could spoil myself with one thing today, it would be _________.

What If

1. Between the 1930s and 1950s  2. A Writer  3. My Chest, I want something smaller  4. Laura Croft b/c she kicks butt but she is also educated and refined  5. Christmas, it's become way too commericalized  6. A spa treament by the beach.  I'm already feeling relaxed

Show us something frustrating.

Unemployment

As everyone knows, Michael has been unemployed since the beginning of May.  He has spend this entire summer job hunting with no winning end.  Now we are impatiently waiting for this one job to call back to let us know that Michael has the job.  However, this particular company is taking it's sweet time, so still no answer.

But Michael isn't giving up and for that I can be a proud and respectful wife.  He called again today to let Caroline know that he can do the job and that he's ready to work.

So to my friends and even strangers that might read this, please pray that something happens soon because if not I'm going to be "living in Florida, living off of sandwiches"...hehe.

Answering Questions

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.

2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.

3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time: 8:08 AM

Name: JENIFER

Sisters: 1, HEATHER, YOUNGER

Brothers: 0

Shoe Size: 9 1/2 - 10

Height: 5'9"

Where do you live: SLOW-CALA, FLORIDA

Favorite drinks: MILK

Favorite breakfast: BAGELS OR THE PERFECT EGG SANDWICH

Have you ever been on a plane?: YES

Swam in the ocean: YES

Fallen asleep at school: YES

Broken someone's heart: I'M NOT SURE ACTUALLY

Fell off your chair: YEAH...HEHE.  OR I'VE GOTTEN PUSHED OUT BY AJ

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:  STUPIDLY YES

What is your room like: CLEAN WITH AN UNMADE BED

What's right beside you:  MICHAEL AND SOMETIMES THE KITTENS

What is the last thing you ate: BAGEL

Ever had chicken pox: TWICE

Sore throat: SUCKED

Stitches: NOPE

Broken nose: THANK GOD, NO

Do you believe in love at first sight: NO NOT REALLY

Attraction at first sight?  YES

Like picnics:  LOVE THEM, ESPECIALLY WITH A NICE SCENE

Who was/were the last person you danced with:  MICHAEL, BEE, AND FRANCES

Last made you smile:  MICHAEL

You last yelled at:  PROBABLY MICHAEL...HEHE. AND I WOULDN'T EVEN CALL IT YELLING

Today did you:-

Talk to someone you like: I TALKED TO MICHAEL WHOM I LOVE

Kissed anyone: YOU KNOW, I DIDN'T GET MY MORNING KISS THIS MORNING.  OH I'VE NOW I'VE GOTTEN.  ")

Get sick: UM...WHO HASN'T?

Talk to an ex: NO

Miss someone: MY GRANDPA, BUT THAT'S ONLY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T SEEN HIM IN A COUPLE OF YEARS

Eat: YES MY HALF BAGEL

Best feeling in the world: BEING BLESSED WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBER WHO LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU.  ALSO THE FEELING OF KNOWING SOMEONE IS WILLING TO HELP YOU FIGHT YOUR BATTLES WITHOUT HAVING TO ASK.

Do you sleep with stuffed animals:  NO

What's under your bed: NOTHING BECAUSE IT'S ON THE GROUND

Who do you really hate:  I ACTUALLY REALLY DON'T HATE ANYONE, SO...

What time is it now?: 8:16 am

5 things I was doing 10 years ago

1. GOING THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL AND HATING IT

2. MOVING INTO A NEW HOME AND AREA

3. LIVING UNDER MY PARENTS ROOF

4. MAKING FRIENDS WITH QUI AND APRIL WHO I'M STILL FRIENDS WITH

5. DEFINING MYSELF

5 things on my to-do list today:

1. CONGRATULATE MICHAEL WHEN HE GETS A JOB

2. GO SHOPPING FOR FOOD

3. PICK UP OUR FREE MOVIE RENTAL

4. SEE HEATHER

5. HANG OUT

5 snacks I enjoy:

1. ICE CREAM

2. POPCORN

3. WHEAT THINS

4. GOLDFISHES

5. FRUIT

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

1. HELP MY FAMILY

2. BUY A HOUSE

3. TRAVEL

4.  CHARITIES

5.  HELL, I'VE GOT A TON OF MONEY, THE QUESTION WHAT WOULDN'T I DO?

5 of my bad habits:

1. BEING BLUNT...HEHE

2. IMPATIENT WITH MYSELF AND THOSE AROUND ME

3. CONTROL

4. TO ME, THINKING TOO DAMN MUCH...JUST OVER ANALYZING EVERYTHING

5. NO DISCIPLINE

5 places I have lived/stayed a night in:

1. OCALA, FLORIDA

2. ST. LOUIS, MO

3. HUNSTIVILLE, AL

4. PHOENIX, AZ

5. SOME WHERE IN GA

Classics

1. Car- Not sure what this vehicle is but it looks pretty classic to me
2. Movie- Casablanca, "Louis, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship".
3. Book- To Kill a Mockingbird
4. TV show- Rifleman, which I feel in love with just recently
5. Performance/artist/song- When Gene Kelly sang "Singing in the Rain" in the moive sharing the same title.  Now that's classic
6. Novelty Item- Kewpid Doll, and I actually have one.

Right now I have the want for a sharp razor, push up bra, a little black dress, and a pair of high heels...red.  The look is classic and the style is me.  Just once I want to look like a movie star and find myself in a restaurant or environment where there is a lounge singer singing of a broken heart, and men wear tuxes.  The mixed drinks are stirred just right, and across the table sits my lover, my friend, my companion...Michael.

The conversation is of love, and everything about it.  Our future is open and anything is possible, and in this perfect place slow music begins to fade in.  Then my gentleman slowly takes my hand, and ever so gently escorts me to the dance floor were we begin to bond.  The movements are in in sync as if we know each other that intimatly.  We embrace each other as if no one is watching, however everyone is watching.  And there on the dance floor, we create our happiness and our world.  The overwhelming peace and comfort I feel as I stare in his eyes.  The strength, dominance, and control I can feel with his hand on my waist, guiding our foot steps and we glide on air.

All my senses are peeked as together we harmonize with the cadence of the music.  Everything is perfect, everything is well.

Me as a lady, Michael as my world.